And I couldn’t be happier.
Two days before Christmas Ryan and I started talking about his gift to MaKennah and we went shopping for it Friday. He wrecked his car Thursday so when I went into work Friday I let him take my car and he picked me up when I got off. On Saturday I went to his house and then he spent the night at my mom’s with me and MaKennah so he could be there with her on Christmas morning. We went to his family’s and my family’s get together’s and then I stayed with him so we could go shopping the next day. I woke up sick and we went to the mall for like thirty minutes before I realized I was way too sick to shop (which if you know me at all you would know that must mean I’m really sick). He took me to a walk in clinic and I found out I had strep so I called off from work and we went back to his house and watch The Last Song. Lol. I stayed with him for like 2 or 3 nights in a row which was nice because it seemed like old times; us in that little twin bed, cuddling all night. Last night we took MaKennah with us and stayed at his moms. I just feel like things are going right again. I’m with the person I want to be with. Yes, I had feelings for Brad, and yes I was incredibly hurt when we broke up, but going through Brad and I’s relationship and our break-up did nothing but bring me back to Ryan so I’m thankful for it all, even all that pain. I know people are going to judge me for this, especially people from my town, but the thing is, people tend to say bad things about the other party that aren’t necessarily the whole truth. Yes, Ryan has made some huge mistakes and put things before MaKennah and I, but people make mistakes. No one is perfect and if I want MaKennah to have her mommy and daddy together, then I have to look past the things that are nothing but past mistakes and move forward from here. Ryan sacrificed a lot for her and mine’s well-being in the past. He worked and told me not to so that I could focus on school, he basically did drop his friends for us no matter how much I deny it, and he payed for everything he could. There were bad times yes, when money was tight or the times he was stupid and bought a $60 x-box game when we really didn’t have the money, but I did stupid things too. The bottom line is, neither of us are perfect, but I think that we both realize that what we have is too special to let some juvenile mistakes come between. We’re young, and it’s going to be hard, but I’m prepared to stick it out this time and so is he. Ryan isn’t the same boy he was in high school. He has a full time job that he will probably be advancing to management in after only working there a year, and if not then he has his eyes on another goal to ensure that he is able to do his share in providing for our family. I just want nothing but support in this.
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